The past few days have sucked. I wonder sometimes why I put myself through so much shit for someone who doesn't appreciate me. I am always ALWAYS there for my bf and it seems like whenever he's pissed about something I'm the last person he runs to no matter how much I try to be there for him. That makes me angry. I am always thinking of him, always worried about him, always wanting things to be better for him, always doing for him. him him HIM. Shit. Just now, we have to work on this assignment due next week. I offered him my notes last night because I take really good notes and my assignment came out well for it. But somehow thay don't work for him. It's like he's mad at me because his shit isn't working. And granted all I have is my notes, if i KNEW how to fix it I WOULD but I DONT and because he's had a shitty semester he's been very sharp with me, so when he left the room all fucked up and frustrated, I let him go. I've been at the mercy of his temper one too many times. My thing now is, he's angry: I don't fuck with him. I simply haven't the time. I expect he's gone home, right? No. He comes back and sits with someone else who can help him better than I apparently. That makes me mad because I'm trying my best and he bites my head off for not KNOWING what to do and yet, he'll be all nice with some asshole who has proven he doesn't give two shits about him. These are the reasons I question our relationship. He's so fast to be with me when shit is good but when it's bad he goes running to his bonehead boys like they know shit. THEY DON'T KNOW SHIT! Then when things are better he's all up under me again like nothing happened and if I happen to seem pissed in the least I get my head bitten off... Asshole. I hope everything works out for him because I want him to do well, but I am sick to death of being his doormat. I am way fucking smarter than them and I love him to death. I always want to help but he's being a dickhead. And when he gets like that I don't feel like helping.